I'm not broken
I am merely made new
with the pieces of the me that
existed long ago, now a stranger
I have formed myself again
with the embers of the fire
that raged through me
scattering pain forever
I'm not who I projected
I remove the tape that held
my illusion of self together
and become the one I am
I have created myself anew
in the image that resides within
the beauty that shines in art and
the song that I sing in my words
I'm not broken
I am, instead, a kaleidoscope
it turns time and time again
each moment its own beauty
02 May 2016
We have a large garden behind the house and I haven't really been using it much these past years. There are a couple reasons for it. One of them is that there is a very persistent weed growing in it that really overtakes the whole garden within minutes after I clear it out to the roots.
It has always been so frustrating to garden, for me, it always felt like a lost effort. I usually spent days clearing it all and then a week later I had to do all that hard work all over again!
Then the other day I read about a way to deal with this weed in a much simpler way. Just cutting off the stems just above the ground and keeping at it. Eventually the weed will weaken and die off.
Can you imagine the joy that went through me as I read that? I grabbed my gardening scissors and found t took me only ten minutes to clear out 1/4th of our garden. 10 minutes!!
As I cut the leaves off, I realised something. I thought: what if I deal with emotions this way? With fears, doubt, anger, anxieties. Instead of dwelling in them, and trying my best to pull out the roots, just acknowledging they are there, and then cut them off before they can become too big.
Even after all my work at becoming aware of what I am feeling and thinking at all times and then letting go, I realised this was a major leap, again.
A couple hours later I made a big mistake in something and I could feel shame and insecurity leap up. I immediately stopped myself, took a deep breath and said thank you for showing up. Then I just let go. I smiled and went back to the calm I had felt moments before.
My inspiration for you
You don't need that either. Just remember. One breath, say thank you and let go. That is all you need to keep your inner garden clear.
And don't forget that warm, all encompassing smile of freedom. Of clarity. Of self love.
30 April 2016
Wow! The end of A to Z! I have to admit, there were many moments where I thought I wouldn't make it, but here I am! So proud.
A big THANK YOU to all the commenters and visitors! Seeing you here was heartwarming.
I won't stop writing about yoga, but for now I am happy to take a break from it!
Big hugs to all of you!